Writer, Ese Walter has written about how the men meant to protect her s£xually abused her right from childhood and how this shaped her.
She explained that she was s£xually abused by her cousin, uncle, and math teacher while she was still a girl.
By the age of 13, she said the abuses she had been subjected to made her realise that older men used her body as they liked.
She proceeded to urge little girls currently in her shoes to “hear” and “heal” themselves even if the world won’t hear them.
“Girls & Our Body Parts
“Boarding house was the third time a man touched me inappropriately.
“Our maths teacher.
“He asked a fellow student to bring me to his quarters to discuss why I was doing so badly in class.
“I usually came in the last three.
“His solution was to rub my body and tell me I won’t come last again.
“After confirming I had never had se x, he proceeeded to grab me tight and start rubbing his pe nis on me.
“I stood there frozen until he was done.
“This was always the safest stance so they don’t get aggressive and hit you.
“In the childhood grand parents house, a cousin had done same to me and before then, an uncle.
“When I wrote a letter to report, I was blamed and told to hush it.
“At 13, my mind had clocked that older men use my body for things I didn’t fully understand and nobody was going to make it stop so I had to manage until grown enough to save myself.
“At 26, it was same thing I was experiencing when my pastor asked me to sit on his laps. The little girl in me had only known how to obey and comply. Maybe thats why I’m so very non compliant these years…
“Besides whether we want to blame or not, victim or villain, can we see how this is a world pattern?
“It’s almost as though the men know they can do as they like and the little girls have never felt protected or been able to speak for fear of being blamed, accused etc, so she grows like that until one day she realizes the effects of the memories and suppression of the things
“Dear little girl,
“The world may never hear you clearly.
“Make sure you hear yourself and you heal yourself. You can.”
